Back in the Day with Steve Beck: “Sustainability has just always been in my bones …"

Darnell Lamont Walker leading Rituals Writing Workshop
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Expert Gardener Steve Beck on half a century of greenery, growth, and the origins of farming at Esalen — from clearing the land to planting the original crops to building the fields that now sustain the faculty, guests, and staff. “We kind of invented the whole thing,” says Beck. “It was like we were reinventing the world.”


I came to Esalen nearly 50 years ago, in 1974. 

In my university days, I studied psychology, so I'd read lots of books about people that were currently at Esalen or had been at Esalen. I was traveling with a lady friend at the time and we came to the baths in the middle of the night. In the morning, I asked if there was a way to stay.

The work study program was just beginning, but it cost like $75 or something. I didn't have $75. So I left. Eventually, I came back down and just volunteered, which back then meant I slept on the highway. I worked in the garden— weeding onions. After about two weeks, they started feeding me. I was eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before that. 

I was determined to stay, though. There were wonderful people here: Stan Grof, Gregory Bateson, and Al Huang. Psychodrama and Gestalt. My thought was to stay for a year, take all the classes I could and then go on my way again. But after a year, I wasn't done. 

More than anything else, I started to just seriously fall in love with the land. A piece of land with hot and cold running water, a redwood forest, an ocean — just a magical place. And then there was a great community.

There was no farm at the time. It was just wildland, except for a small pot farm hidden in the bushes. I went from weeding the onions to working in the kitchen as a cook’s helper and a dishwasher. Robin Williams was also a dishwasher here, so I take great pride in having been one at Esalen.

In 1977, the gas crisis was happening and it was like, Oh, my God, we're all going to hell. We understood we needed to rely on ourselves.

“Organic” wasn’t really a thing. It was a time when you would go into the natural food store and there would be two bins at the entrance with really bad looking fruit — like oranges that had fallen off a truck or something. They were supposedly “organic.”

We ventured into this whole sustainability thing. There were some ideas that were unusual, like when we bought a small boat so we could go out and fish. The first time the boat went out, it flipped over and the surf lost all the gear. That was the end of that. 

The thing that stuck was the farm. In 1981, Bruce Neib and Steve Harper cleared the land over there. It was very rocky. So we took out big boulders and put in the infrastructure, the water system. Some trees had been planted, some blackberries had been planted, but there were no real crops yet.

We kind of invented the whole thing. Sustainability has just always been in my bones. And so I just got a little nutty with the compost. I mean, I just loved it. The idea of taking all that stuff and turning it into this rich amendment for the tilth and fertilizing of the soil. It was just amazing. 

We were doing it by the tens of tons, with literally dump trucks full of cardboard being eaten by worms.

I took everything, every scrap of anything that had ever grown at Esalen, all of the stuff from the grounds, all of the stuff from the kitchen, all of the leftovers from the harvest, all the cardboard that ever came through the place. It would all go over to our compost pile. There were some fishermen down south who were going out in small boats and catching about 300 pounds of rockfish. They’d sell the filets for thirty-five cents a pound, then give me the skins and the bones and the heads, barrels of fish guts. There were deer off the highway, too. It all went in. 

We just would work things out with experience. We made all the mistakes that we could make. The farm was where we would grow large crops in series. We were doing really good in the summers. The kitchen would be buying things like tomatoes and peppers, but the rest completely came from the garden and farm.

A good day of harvest would be to fill the back of a pickup, wash it all, and get everything into the kitchen walk-in. During the winter we would take one field at the farm and plant it all with brassicas: kales and chards and things like that. And because it's winter, it would last all winter long.

All of the compost that we made came to the garden. It was always organic. We didn't use pesticides. The one time I tried pesticides was when we had cabbage maggots. The maggot eats the stem of the broccoli, and it was a real problem. So I thought, okay, you know, I've had it with this. I bought some pesticide, mixed it up, put it in a little spray bottle, and I would just give a little squirt around the base of the plant. Well, it was awful. I had worms coming up and dying on the ground, and that was the end of that. There are better ways. 

Permaculture — oh, God! Permaculture sold really well. Nobody actually did permaculture, but everybody taught permaculture. There was never anybody that I knew that took it seriously. 

You know, maybe there are some good things from permaculture. I have never seen a good example of it. There have to be someplace, but I don't know where they are. But there's an awful lot of permaculture teachers and workshops.

In the mid-80s, I met this fellow named Amigo Bob. He's kind of famous in California organic agriculture. He and I became friends, and we set up a number of invited conferences at Esalen. Michael Murphy was open to it, and it was not a big deal to take the Big House and Little House for a five-day period and invite these people in. Amigo Bob had the contacts, Esalen had the space, and we would raise money for transportation and whatever else. 

It's not an overstatement to say that we had the best people in agriculture come to these. Some of the California people once wanted to rename organic agriculture. Some folks wanted to call it “regenerative.” We went back and forth. Everybody wanted to get rid of “organic” because all organic meant to the consumer was, you won't die from eating this food. 

It was so exciting; we hardly slept during that week. People up all night long going back and forth. Presentations and sessions during the day and people down at the baths again in the middle of the night working all this stuff out. It's not a big deal now, and regenerative has kind of taken the lead, but at the time, it was like we were reinventing the world.

Farming here, gardening here at Esalen, is so wonderful. It's just this constant invention. Walking on the rocks below the baths is grounding. Running on those rocks, where you don't know where the next step is gonna come from, and magically, a rock appears, and the next, and the next. And then to have the land become the cells in our bodies — that's important.

“Remembering to be as self compassionate as I can and praying to the divine that we're all a part of.” 
–Aaron

“Prayer, reading, meditation, walking.”
–Karen
“Erratically — which is an ongoing stream of practice to find peace.”
–Charles
“Try on a daily basis to be kind to myself and to realize that making mistakes is a part of the human condition. Learning from our mistakes is a journey. But it starts with compassion and caring. First for oneself.”
–Steve

“Physically: aerobic exercise, volleyball, ice hockey, cycling, sailing. Emotionally: unfortunately I have to work to ‘not care’ about people or situations which may end painfully. Along the lines of ‘attachment is the source of suffering’, so best to avoid it or limit its scope. Sad though because it could also be the source of great joy. Is it worth the risk?“
–Rainer

“It's time for my heart to be nurtured on one level yet contained on another. To go easy on me and to allow my feelings to be validated, not judged harshly. On the other hand, to let the heart rule with equanimity and not lead the mind and body around like a master.”
–Suzanne

“I spend time thinking of everything I am grateful for, and I try to develop my ability to express compassion for myself and others without reservation. I take time to do the things I need to do to keep myself healthy and happy. This includes taking experiential workshops, fostering relationships, and participating within groups which have a similar interest to become a more compassionate and fulfilled being.“
–Peter

“Self-forgiveness for my own judgments. And oh yeah, coming to Esalen.”
–David B.

“Hmm, this is a tough one! I guess I take care of my heart through fostering relationships with people I feel connected to. Spending quality time with them (whether we're on the phone, through messages/letters, on Zoom, or in-person). Being there for them, listening to them, sharing what's going on with me, my struggles and my successes... like we do in the Esalen weekly Friends of Esalen Zoom sessions!”
–Lori

“I remind myself in many ways of the fact that " Love is all there is!" LOVE is the prize and this one precious life is the stage we get to learn our lessons. I get out into nature, hike, camp, river kayak, fly fish, garden, I create, I dance (not enough!), and I remain grateful for each day, each breath, each moment. Being in the moment, awake, and remembering the gift of life and my feeling of gratitude for all of creation.”
–Steven
“My physical heart by limiting stress and eating a heart-healthy diet. My emotional heart by staying in love with the world and by knowing that all disappointment and loss will pass.“
–David Z.


Today, September 29, is World Heart Day. Strike up a conversation with your own heart and as you feel comfortable, encourage others to do the same. As part of our own transformations and self-care, we sometimes ask for others to illuminate and enliven our hearts or speak our love language.

What if we could do this for ourselves too, even if just for today… or to start a heart practice, forever?



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Back in the Day with Steve Beck: “Sustainability has just always been in my bones …"
Category:

Expert Gardener Steve Beck on half a century of greenery, growth, and the origins of farming at Esalen — from clearing the land to planting the original crops to building the fields that now sustain the faculty, guests, and staff. “We kind of invented the whole thing,” says Beck. “It was like we were reinventing the world.”


I came to Esalen nearly 50 years ago, in 1974. 

In my university days, I studied psychology, so I'd read lots of books about people that were currently at Esalen or had been at Esalen. I was traveling with a lady friend at the time and we came to the baths in the middle of the night. In the morning, I asked if there was a way to stay.

The work study program was just beginning, but it cost like $75 or something. I didn't have $75. So I left. Eventually, I came back down and just volunteered, which back then meant I slept on the highway. I worked in the garden— weeding onions. After about two weeks, they started feeding me. I was eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before that. 

I was determined to stay, though. There were wonderful people here: Stan Grof, Gregory Bateson, and Al Huang. Psychodrama and Gestalt. My thought was to stay for a year, take all the classes I could and then go on my way again. But after a year, I wasn't done. 

More than anything else, I started to just seriously fall in love with the land. A piece of land with hot and cold running water, a redwood forest, an ocean — just a magical place. And then there was a great community.

There was no farm at the time. It was just wildland, except for a small pot farm hidden in the bushes. I went from weeding the onions to working in the kitchen as a cook’s helper and a dishwasher. Robin Williams was also a dishwasher here, so I take great pride in having been one at Esalen.

In 1977, the gas crisis was happening and it was like, Oh, my God, we're all going to hell. We understood we needed to rely on ourselves.

“Organic” wasn’t really a thing. It was a time when you would go into the natural food store and there would be two bins at the entrance with really bad looking fruit — like oranges that had fallen off a truck or something. They were supposedly “organic.”

We ventured into this whole sustainability thing. There were some ideas that were unusual, like when we bought a small boat so we could go out and fish. The first time the boat went out, it flipped over and the surf lost all the gear. That was the end of that. 

The thing that stuck was the farm. In 1981, Bruce Neib and Steve Harper cleared the land over there. It was very rocky. So we took out big boulders and put in the infrastructure, the water system. Some trees had been planted, some blackberries had been planted, but there were no real crops yet.

We kind of invented the whole thing. Sustainability has just always been in my bones. And so I just got a little nutty with the compost. I mean, I just loved it. The idea of taking all that stuff and turning it into this rich amendment for the tilth and fertilizing of the soil. It was just amazing. 

We were doing it by the tens of tons, with literally dump trucks full of cardboard being eaten by worms.

I took everything, every scrap of anything that had ever grown at Esalen, all of the stuff from the grounds, all of the stuff from the kitchen, all of the leftovers from the harvest, all the cardboard that ever came through the place. It would all go over to our compost pile. There were some fishermen down south who were going out in small boats and catching about 300 pounds of rockfish. They’d sell the filets for thirty-five cents a pound, then give me the skins and the bones and the heads, barrels of fish guts. There were deer off the highway, too. It all went in. 

We just would work things out with experience. We made all the mistakes that we could make. The farm was where we would grow large crops in series. We were doing really good in the summers. The kitchen would be buying things like tomatoes and peppers, but the rest completely came from the garden and farm.

A good day of harvest would be to fill the back of a pickup, wash it all, and get everything into the kitchen walk-in. During the winter we would take one field at the farm and plant it all with brassicas: kales and chards and things like that. And because it's winter, it would last all winter long.

All of the compost that we made came to the garden. It was always organic. We didn't use pesticides. The one time I tried pesticides was when we had cabbage maggots. The maggot eats the stem of the broccoli, and it was a real problem. So I thought, okay, you know, I've had it with this. I bought some pesticide, mixed it up, put it in a little spray bottle, and I would just give a little squirt around the base of the plant. Well, it was awful. I had worms coming up and dying on the ground, and that was the end of that. There are better ways. 

Permaculture — oh, God! Permaculture sold really well. Nobody actually did permaculture, but everybody taught permaculture. There was never anybody that I knew that took it seriously. 

You know, maybe there are some good things from permaculture. I have never seen a good example of it. There have to be someplace, but I don't know where they are. But there's an awful lot of permaculture teachers and workshops.

In the mid-80s, I met this fellow named Amigo Bob. He's kind of famous in California organic agriculture. He and I became friends, and we set up a number of invited conferences at Esalen. Michael Murphy was open to it, and it was not a big deal to take the Big House and Little House for a five-day period and invite these people in. Amigo Bob had the contacts, Esalen had the space, and we would raise money for transportation and whatever else. 

It's not an overstatement to say that we had the best people in agriculture come to these. Some of the California people once wanted to rename organic agriculture. Some folks wanted to call it “regenerative.” We went back and forth. Everybody wanted to get rid of “organic” because all organic meant to the consumer was, you won't die from eating this food. 

It was so exciting; we hardly slept during that week. People up all night long going back and forth. Presentations and sessions during the day and people down at the baths again in the middle of the night working all this stuff out. It's not a big deal now, and regenerative has kind of taken the lead, but at the time, it was like we were reinventing the world.

Farming here, gardening here at Esalen, is so wonderful. It's just this constant invention. Walking on the rocks below the baths is grounding. Running on those rocks, where you don't know where the next step is gonna come from, and magically, a rock appears, and the next, and the next. And then to have the land become the cells in our bodies — that's important.

“Remembering to be as self compassionate as I can and praying to the divine that we're all a part of.” 
–Aaron

“Prayer, reading, meditation, walking.”
–Karen
“Erratically — which is an ongoing stream of practice to find peace.”
–Charles
“Try on a daily basis to be kind to myself and to realize that making mistakes is a part of the human condition. Learning from our mistakes is a journey. But it starts with compassion and caring. First for oneself.”
–Steve

“Physically: aerobic exercise, volleyball, ice hockey, cycling, sailing. Emotionally: unfortunately I have to work to ‘not care’ about people or situations which may end painfully. Along the lines of ‘attachment is the source of suffering’, so best to avoid it or limit its scope. Sad though because it could also be the source of great joy. Is it worth the risk?“
–Rainer

“It's time for my heart to be nurtured on one level yet contained on another. To go easy on me and to allow my feelings to be validated, not judged harshly. On the other hand, to let the heart rule with equanimity and not lead the mind and body around like a master.”
–Suzanne

“I spend time thinking of everything I am grateful for, and I try to develop my ability to express compassion for myself and others without reservation. I take time to do the things I need to do to keep myself healthy and happy. This includes taking experiential workshops, fostering relationships, and participating within groups which have a similar interest to become a more compassionate and fulfilled being.“
–Peter

“Self-forgiveness for my own judgments. And oh yeah, coming to Esalen.”
–David B.

“Hmm, this is a tough one! I guess I take care of my heart through fostering relationships with people I feel connected to. Spending quality time with them (whether we're on the phone, through messages/letters, on Zoom, or in-person). Being there for them, listening to them, sharing what's going on with me, my struggles and my successes... like we do in the Esalen weekly Friends of Esalen Zoom sessions!”
–Lori

“I remind myself in many ways of the fact that " Love is all there is!" LOVE is the prize and this one precious life is the stage we get to learn our lessons. I get out into nature, hike, camp, river kayak, fly fish, garden, I create, I dance (not enough!), and I remain grateful for each day, each breath, each moment. Being in the moment, awake, and remembering the gift of life and my feeling of gratitude for all of creation.”
–Steven
“My physical heart by limiting stress and eating a heart-healthy diet. My emotional heart by staying in love with the world and by knowing that all disappointment and loss will pass.“
–David Z.


Today, September 29, is World Heart Day. Strike up a conversation with your own heart and as you feel comfortable, encourage others to do the same. As part of our own transformations and self-care, we sometimes ask for others to illuminate and enliven our hearts or speak our love language.

What if we could do this for ourselves too, even if just for today… or to start a heart practice, forever?



About

Esalen Team

Back in the Day with Steve Beck: “Sustainability has just always been in my bones …"

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Category:

Expert Gardener Steve Beck on half a century of greenery, growth, and the origins of farming at Esalen — from clearing the land to planting the original crops to building the fields that now sustain the faculty, guests, and staff. “We kind of invented the whole thing,” says Beck. “It was like we were reinventing the world.”


I came to Esalen nearly 50 years ago, in 1974. 

In my university days, I studied psychology, so I'd read lots of books about people that were currently at Esalen or had been at Esalen. I was traveling with a lady friend at the time and we came to the baths in the middle of the night. In the morning, I asked if there was a way to stay.

The work study program was just beginning, but it cost like $75 or something. I didn't have $75. So I left. Eventually, I came back down and just volunteered, which back then meant I slept on the highway. I worked in the garden— weeding onions. After about two weeks, they started feeding me. I was eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before that. 

I was determined to stay, though. There were wonderful people here: Stan Grof, Gregory Bateson, and Al Huang. Psychodrama and Gestalt. My thought was to stay for a year, take all the classes I could and then go on my way again. But after a year, I wasn't done. 

More than anything else, I started to just seriously fall in love with the land. A piece of land with hot and cold running water, a redwood forest, an ocean — just a magical place. And then there was a great community.

There was no farm at the time. It was just wildland, except for a small pot farm hidden in the bushes. I went from weeding the onions to working in the kitchen as a cook’s helper and a dishwasher. Robin Williams was also a dishwasher here, so I take great pride in having been one at Esalen.

In 1977, the gas crisis was happening and it was like, Oh, my God, we're all going to hell. We understood we needed to rely on ourselves.

“Organic” wasn’t really a thing. It was a time when you would go into the natural food store and there would be two bins at the entrance with really bad looking fruit — like oranges that had fallen off a truck or something. They were supposedly “organic.”

We ventured into this whole sustainability thing. There were some ideas that were unusual, like when we bought a small boat so we could go out and fish. The first time the boat went out, it flipped over and the surf lost all the gear. That was the end of that. 

The thing that stuck was the farm. In 1981, Bruce Neib and Steve Harper cleared the land over there. It was very rocky. So we took out big boulders and put in the infrastructure, the water system. Some trees had been planted, some blackberries had been planted, but there were no real crops yet.

We kind of invented the whole thing. Sustainability has just always been in my bones. And so I just got a little nutty with the compost. I mean, I just loved it. The idea of taking all that stuff and turning it into this rich amendment for the tilth and fertilizing of the soil. It was just amazing. 

We were doing it by the tens of tons, with literally dump trucks full of cardboard being eaten by worms.

I took everything, every scrap of anything that had ever grown at Esalen, all of the stuff from the grounds, all of the stuff from the kitchen, all of the leftovers from the harvest, all the cardboard that ever came through the place. It would all go over to our compost pile. There were some fishermen down south who were going out in small boats and catching about 300 pounds of rockfish. They’d sell the filets for thirty-five cents a pound, then give me the skins and the bones and the heads, barrels of fish guts. There were deer off the highway, too. It all went in. 

We just would work things out with experience. We made all the mistakes that we could make. The farm was where we would grow large crops in series. We were doing really good in the summers. The kitchen would be buying things like tomatoes and peppers, but the rest completely came from the garden and farm.

A good day of harvest would be to fill the back of a pickup, wash it all, and get everything into the kitchen walk-in. During the winter we would take one field at the farm and plant it all with brassicas: kales and chards and things like that. And because it's winter, it would last all winter long.

All of the compost that we made came to the garden. It was always organic. We didn't use pesticides. The one time I tried pesticides was when we had cabbage maggots. The maggot eats the stem of the broccoli, and it was a real problem. So I thought, okay, you know, I've had it with this. I bought some pesticide, mixed it up, put it in a little spray bottle, and I would just give a little squirt around the base of the plant. Well, it was awful. I had worms coming up and dying on the ground, and that was the end of that. There are better ways. 

Permaculture — oh, God! Permaculture sold really well. Nobody actually did permaculture, but everybody taught permaculture. There was never anybody that I knew that took it seriously. 

You know, maybe there are some good things from permaculture. I have never seen a good example of it. There have to be someplace, but I don't know where they are. But there's an awful lot of permaculture teachers and workshops.

In the mid-80s, I met this fellow named Amigo Bob. He's kind of famous in California organic agriculture. He and I became friends, and we set up a number of invited conferences at Esalen. Michael Murphy was open to it, and it was not a big deal to take the Big House and Little House for a five-day period and invite these people in. Amigo Bob had the contacts, Esalen had the space, and we would raise money for transportation and whatever else. 

It's not an overstatement to say that we had the best people in agriculture come to these. Some of the California people once wanted to rename organic agriculture. Some folks wanted to call it “regenerative.” We went back and forth. Everybody wanted to get rid of “organic” because all organic meant to the consumer was, you won't die from eating this food. 

It was so exciting; we hardly slept during that week. People up all night long going back and forth. Presentations and sessions during the day and people down at the baths again in the middle of the night working all this stuff out. It's not a big deal now, and regenerative has kind of taken the lead, but at the time, it was like we were reinventing the world.

Farming here, gardening here at Esalen, is so wonderful. It's just this constant invention. Walking on the rocks below the baths is grounding. Running on those rocks, where you don't know where the next step is gonna come from, and magically, a rock appears, and the next, and the next. And then to have the land become the cells in our bodies — that's important.

“Remembering to be as self compassionate as I can and praying to the divine that we're all a part of.” 
–Aaron

“Prayer, reading, meditation, walking.”
–Karen
“Erratically — which is an ongoing stream of practice to find peace.”
–Charles
“Try on a daily basis to be kind to myself and to realize that making mistakes is a part of the human condition. Learning from our mistakes is a journey. But it starts with compassion and caring. First for oneself.”
–Steve

“Physically: aerobic exercise, volleyball, ice hockey, cycling, sailing. Emotionally: unfortunately I have to work to ‘not care’ about people or situations which may end painfully. Along the lines of ‘attachment is the source of suffering’, so best to avoid it or limit its scope. Sad though because it could also be the source of great joy. Is it worth the risk?“
–Rainer

“It's time for my heart to be nurtured on one level yet contained on another. To go easy on me and to allow my feelings to be validated, not judged harshly. On the other hand, to let the heart rule with equanimity and not lead the mind and body around like a master.”
–Suzanne

“I spend time thinking of everything I am grateful for, and I try to develop my ability to express compassion for myself and others without reservation. I take time to do the things I need to do to keep myself healthy and happy. This includes taking experiential workshops, fostering relationships, and participating within groups which have a similar interest to become a more compassionate and fulfilled being.“
–Peter

“Self-forgiveness for my own judgments. And oh yeah, coming to Esalen.”
–David B.

“Hmm, this is a tough one! I guess I take care of my heart through fostering relationships with people I feel connected to. Spending quality time with them (whether we're on the phone, through messages/letters, on Zoom, or in-person). Being there for them, listening to them, sharing what's going on with me, my struggles and my successes... like we do in the Esalen weekly Friends of Esalen Zoom sessions!”
–Lori

“I remind myself in many ways of the fact that " Love is all there is!" LOVE is the prize and this one precious life is the stage we get to learn our lessons. I get out into nature, hike, camp, river kayak, fly fish, garden, I create, I dance (not enough!), and I remain grateful for each day, each breath, each moment. Being in the moment, awake, and remembering the gift of life and my feeling of gratitude for all of creation.”
–Steven
“My physical heart by limiting stress and eating a heart-healthy diet. My emotional heart by staying in love with the world and by knowing that all disappointment and loss will pass.“
–David Z.


Today, September 29, is World Heart Day. Strike up a conversation with your own heart and as you feel comfortable, encourage others to do the same. As part of our own transformations and self-care, we sometimes ask for others to illuminate and enliven our hearts or speak our love language.

What if we could do this for ourselves too, even if just for today… or to start a heart practice, forever?



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Back in the Day with Steve Beck: “Sustainability has just always been in my bones …"
Category:

Expert Gardener Steve Beck on half a century of greenery, growth, and the origins of farming at Esalen — from clearing the land to planting the original crops to building the fields that now sustain the faculty, guests, and staff. “We kind of invented the whole thing,” says Beck. “It was like we were reinventing the world.”


I came to Esalen nearly 50 years ago, in 1974. 

In my university days, I studied psychology, so I'd read lots of books about people that were currently at Esalen or had been at Esalen. I was traveling with a lady friend at the time and we came to the baths in the middle of the night. In the morning, I asked if there was a way to stay.

The work study program was just beginning, but it cost like $75 or something. I didn't have $75. So I left. Eventually, I came back down and just volunteered, which back then meant I slept on the highway. I worked in the garden— weeding onions. After about two weeks, they started feeding me. I was eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before that. 

I was determined to stay, though. There were wonderful people here: Stan Grof, Gregory Bateson, and Al Huang. Psychodrama and Gestalt. My thought was to stay for a year, take all the classes I could and then go on my way again. But after a year, I wasn't done. 

More than anything else, I started to just seriously fall in love with the land. A piece of land with hot and cold running water, a redwood forest, an ocean — just a magical place. And then there was a great community.

There was no farm at the time. It was just wildland, except for a small pot farm hidden in the bushes. I went from weeding the onions to working in the kitchen as a cook’s helper and a dishwasher. Robin Williams was also a dishwasher here, so I take great pride in having been one at Esalen.

In 1977, the gas crisis was happening and it was like, Oh, my God, we're all going to hell. We understood we needed to rely on ourselves.

“Organic” wasn’t really a thing. It was a time when you would go into the natural food store and there would be two bins at the entrance with really bad looking fruit — like oranges that had fallen off a truck or something. They were supposedly “organic.”

We ventured into this whole sustainability thing. There were some ideas that were unusual, like when we bought a small boat so we could go out and fish. The first time the boat went out, it flipped over and the surf lost all the gear. That was the end of that. 

The thing that stuck was the farm. In 1981, Bruce Neib and Steve Harper cleared the land over there. It was very rocky. So we took out big boulders and put in the infrastructure, the water system. Some trees had been planted, some blackberries had been planted, but there were no real crops yet.

We kind of invented the whole thing. Sustainability has just always been in my bones. And so I just got a little nutty with the compost. I mean, I just loved it. The idea of taking all that stuff and turning it into this rich amendment for the tilth and fertilizing of the soil. It was just amazing. 

We were doing it by the tens of tons, with literally dump trucks full of cardboard being eaten by worms.

I took everything, every scrap of anything that had ever grown at Esalen, all of the stuff from the grounds, all of the stuff from the kitchen, all of the leftovers from the harvest, all the cardboard that ever came through the place. It would all go over to our compost pile. There were some fishermen down south who were going out in small boats and catching about 300 pounds of rockfish. They’d sell the filets for thirty-five cents a pound, then give me the skins and the bones and the heads, barrels of fish guts. There were deer off the highway, too. It all went in. 

We just would work things out with experience. We made all the mistakes that we could make. The farm was where we would grow large crops in series. We were doing really good in the summers. The kitchen would be buying things like tomatoes and peppers, but the rest completely came from the garden and farm.

A good day of harvest would be to fill the back of a pickup, wash it all, and get everything into the kitchen walk-in. During the winter we would take one field at the farm and plant it all with brassicas: kales and chards and things like that. And because it's winter, it would last all winter long.

All of the compost that we made came to the garden. It was always organic. We didn't use pesticides. The one time I tried pesticides was when we had cabbage maggots. The maggot eats the stem of the broccoli, and it was a real problem. So I thought, okay, you know, I've had it with this. I bought some pesticide, mixed it up, put it in a little spray bottle, and I would just give a little squirt around the base of the plant. Well, it was awful. I had worms coming up and dying on the ground, and that was the end of that. There are better ways. 

Permaculture — oh, God! Permaculture sold really well. Nobody actually did permaculture, but everybody taught permaculture. There was never anybody that I knew that took it seriously. 

You know, maybe there are some good things from permaculture. I have never seen a good example of it. There have to be someplace, but I don't know where they are. But there's an awful lot of permaculture teachers and workshops.

In the mid-80s, I met this fellow named Amigo Bob. He's kind of famous in California organic agriculture. He and I became friends, and we set up a number of invited conferences at Esalen. Michael Murphy was open to it, and it was not a big deal to take the Big House and Little House for a five-day period and invite these people in. Amigo Bob had the contacts, Esalen had the space, and we would raise money for transportation and whatever else. 

It's not an overstatement to say that we had the best people in agriculture come to these. Some of the California people once wanted to rename organic agriculture. Some folks wanted to call it “regenerative.” We went back and forth. Everybody wanted to get rid of “organic” because all organic meant to the consumer was, you won't die from eating this food. 

It was so exciting; we hardly slept during that week. People up all night long going back and forth. Presentations and sessions during the day and people down at the baths again in the middle of the night working all this stuff out. It's not a big deal now, and regenerative has kind of taken the lead, but at the time, it was like we were reinventing the world.

Farming here, gardening here at Esalen, is so wonderful. It's just this constant invention. Walking on the rocks below the baths is grounding. Running on those rocks, where you don't know where the next step is gonna come from, and magically, a rock appears, and the next, and the next. And then to have the land become the cells in our bodies — that's important.

“Remembering to be as self compassionate as I can and praying to the divine that we're all a part of.” 
–Aaron

“Prayer, reading, meditation, walking.”
–Karen
“Erratically — which is an ongoing stream of practice to find peace.”
–Charles
“Try on a daily basis to be kind to myself and to realize that making mistakes is a part of the human condition. Learning from our mistakes is a journey. But it starts with compassion and caring. First for oneself.”
–Steve

“Physically: aerobic exercise, volleyball, ice hockey, cycling, sailing. Emotionally: unfortunately I have to work to ‘not care’ about people or situations which may end painfully. Along the lines of ‘attachment is the source of suffering’, so best to avoid it or limit its scope. Sad though because it could also be the source of great joy. Is it worth the risk?“
–Rainer

“It's time for my heart to be nurtured on one level yet contained on another. To go easy on me and to allow my feelings to be validated, not judged harshly. On the other hand, to let the heart rule with equanimity and not lead the mind and body around like a master.”
–Suzanne

“I spend time thinking of everything I am grateful for, and I try to develop my ability to express compassion for myself and others without reservation. I take time to do the things I need to do to keep myself healthy and happy. This includes taking experiential workshops, fostering relationships, and participating within groups which have a similar interest to become a more compassionate and fulfilled being.“
–Peter

“Self-forgiveness for my own judgments. And oh yeah, coming to Esalen.”
–David B.

“Hmm, this is a tough one! I guess I take care of my heart through fostering relationships with people I feel connected to. Spending quality time with them (whether we're on the phone, through messages/letters, on Zoom, or in-person). Being there for them, listening to them, sharing what's going on with me, my struggles and my successes... like we do in the Esalen weekly Friends of Esalen Zoom sessions!”
–Lori

“I remind myself in many ways of the fact that " Love is all there is!" LOVE is the prize and this one precious life is the stage we get to learn our lessons. I get out into nature, hike, camp, river kayak, fly fish, garden, I create, I dance (not enough!), and I remain grateful for each day, each breath, each moment. Being in the moment, awake, and remembering the gift of life and my feeling of gratitude for all of creation.”
–Steven
“My physical heart by limiting stress and eating a heart-healthy diet. My emotional heart by staying in love with the world and by knowing that all disappointment and loss will pass.“
–David Z.


Today, September 29, is World Heart Day. Strike up a conversation with your own heart and as you feel comfortable, encourage others to do the same. As part of our own transformations and self-care, we sometimes ask for others to illuminate and enliven our hearts or speak our love language.

What if we could do this for ourselves too, even if just for today… or to start a heart practice, forever?



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Expert Gardener Steve Beck on half a century of greenery, growth, and the origins of farming at Esalen — from clearing the land to planting the original crops to building the fields that now sustain the faculty, guests, and staff. “We kind of invented the whole thing,” says Beck. “It was like we were reinventing the world.”


I came to Esalen nearly 50 years ago, in 1974. 

In my university days, I studied psychology, so I'd read lots of books about people that were currently at Esalen or had been at Esalen. I was traveling with a lady friend at the time and we came to the baths in the middle of the night. In the morning, I asked if there was a way to stay.

The work study program was just beginning, but it cost like $75 or something. I didn't have $75. So I left. Eventually, I came back down and just volunteered, which back then meant I slept on the highway. I worked in the garden— weeding onions. After about two weeks, they started feeding me. I was eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before that. 

I was determined to stay, though. There were wonderful people here: Stan Grof, Gregory Bateson, and Al Huang. Psychodrama and Gestalt. My thought was to stay for a year, take all the classes I could and then go on my way again. But after a year, I wasn't done. 

More than anything else, I started to just seriously fall in love with the land. A piece of land with hot and cold running water, a redwood forest, an ocean — just a magical place. And then there was a great community.

There was no farm at the time. It was just wildland, except for a small pot farm hidden in the bushes. I went from weeding the onions to working in the kitchen as a cook’s helper and a dishwasher. Robin Williams was also a dishwasher here, so I take great pride in having been one at Esalen.

In 1977, the gas crisis was happening and it was like, Oh, my God, we're all going to hell. We understood we needed to rely on ourselves.

“Organic” wasn’t really a thing. It was a time when you would go into the natural food store and there would be two bins at the entrance with really bad looking fruit — like oranges that had fallen off a truck or something. They were supposedly “organic.”

We ventured into this whole sustainability thing. There were some ideas that were unusual, like when we bought a small boat so we could go out and fish. The first time the boat went out, it flipped over and the surf lost all the gear. That was the end of that. 

The thing that stuck was the farm. In 1981, Bruce Neib and Steve Harper cleared the land over there. It was very rocky. So we took out big boulders and put in the infrastructure, the water system. Some trees had been planted, some blackberries had been planted, but there were no real crops yet.

We kind of invented the whole thing. Sustainability has just always been in my bones. And so I just got a little nutty with the compost. I mean, I just loved it. The idea of taking all that stuff and turning it into this rich amendment for the tilth and fertilizing of the soil. It was just amazing. 

We were doing it by the tens of tons, with literally dump trucks full of cardboard being eaten by worms.

I took everything, every scrap of anything that had ever grown at Esalen, all of the stuff from the grounds, all of the stuff from the kitchen, all of the leftovers from the harvest, all the cardboard that ever came through the place. It would all go over to our compost pile. There were some fishermen down south who were going out in small boats and catching about 300 pounds of rockfish. They’d sell the filets for thirty-five cents a pound, then give me the skins and the bones and the heads, barrels of fish guts. There were deer off the highway, too. It all went in. 

We just would work things out with experience. We made all the mistakes that we could make. The farm was where we would grow large crops in series. We were doing really good in the summers. The kitchen would be buying things like tomatoes and peppers, but the rest completely came from the garden and farm.

A good day of harvest would be to fill the back of a pickup, wash it all, and get everything into the kitchen walk-in. During the winter we would take one field at the farm and plant it all with brassicas: kales and chards and things like that. And because it's winter, it would last all winter long.

All of the compost that we made came to the garden. It was always organic. We didn't use pesticides. The one time I tried pesticides was when we had cabbage maggots. The maggot eats the stem of the broccoli, and it was a real problem. So I thought, okay, you know, I've had it with this. I bought some pesticide, mixed it up, put it in a little spray bottle, and I would just give a little squirt around the base of the plant. Well, it was awful. I had worms coming up and dying on the ground, and that was the end of that. There are better ways. 

Permaculture — oh, God! Permaculture sold really well. Nobody actually did permaculture, but everybody taught permaculture. There was never anybody that I knew that took it seriously. 

You know, maybe there are some good things from permaculture. I have never seen a good example of it. There have to be someplace, but I don't know where they are. But there's an awful lot of permaculture teachers and workshops.

In the mid-80s, I met this fellow named Amigo Bob. He's kind of famous in California organic agriculture. He and I became friends, and we set up a number of invited conferences at Esalen. Michael Murphy was open to it, and it was not a big deal to take the Big House and Little House for a five-day period and invite these people in. Amigo Bob had the contacts, Esalen had the space, and we would raise money for transportation and whatever else. 

It's not an overstatement to say that we had the best people in agriculture come to these. Some of the California people once wanted to rename organic agriculture. Some folks wanted to call it “regenerative.” We went back and forth. Everybody wanted to get rid of “organic” because all organic meant to the consumer was, you won't die from eating this food. 

It was so exciting; we hardly slept during that week. People up all night long going back and forth. Presentations and sessions during the day and people down at the baths again in the middle of the night working all this stuff out. It's not a big deal now, and regenerative has kind of taken the lead, but at the time, it was like we were reinventing the world.

Farming here, gardening here at Esalen, is so wonderful. It's just this constant invention. Walking on the rocks below the baths is grounding. Running on those rocks, where you don't know where the next step is gonna come from, and magically, a rock appears, and the next, and the next. And then to have the land become the cells in our bodies — that's important.

“Remembering to be as self compassionate as I can and praying to the divine that we're all a part of.” 
–Aaron

“Prayer, reading, meditation, walking.”
–Karen
“Erratically — which is an ongoing stream of practice to find peace.”
–Charles
“Try on a daily basis to be kind to myself and to realize that making mistakes is a part of the human condition. Learning from our mistakes is a journey. But it starts with compassion and caring. First for oneself.”
–Steve

“Physically: aerobic exercise, volleyball, ice hockey, cycling, sailing. Emotionally: unfortunately I have to work to ‘not care’ about people or situations which may end painfully. Along the lines of ‘attachment is the source of suffering’, so best to avoid it or limit its scope. Sad though because it could also be the source of great joy. Is it worth the risk?“
–Rainer

“It's time for my heart to be nurtured on one level yet contained on another. To go easy on me and to allow my feelings to be validated, not judged harshly. On the other hand, to let the heart rule with equanimity and not lead the mind and body around like a master.”
–Suzanne

“I spend time thinking of everything I am grateful for, and I try to develop my ability to express compassion for myself and others without reservation. I take time to do the things I need to do to keep myself healthy and happy. This includes taking experiential workshops, fostering relationships, and participating within groups which have a similar interest to become a more compassionate and fulfilled being.“
–Peter

“Self-forgiveness for my own judgments. And oh yeah, coming to Esalen.”
–David B.

“Hmm, this is a tough one! I guess I take care of my heart through fostering relationships with people I feel connected to. Spending quality time with them (whether we're on the phone, through messages/letters, on Zoom, or in-person). Being there for them, listening to them, sharing what's going on with me, my struggles and my successes... like we do in the Esalen weekly Friends of Esalen Zoom sessions!”
–Lori

“I remind myself in many ways of the fact that " Love is all there is!" LOVE is the prize and this one precious life is the stage we get to learn our lessons. I get out into nature, hike, camp, river kayak, fly fish, garden, I create, I dance (not enough!), and I remain grateful for each day, each breath, each moment. Being in the moment, awake, and remembering the gift of life and my feeling of gratitude for all of creation.”
–Steven
“My physical heart by limiting stress and eating a heart-healthy diet. My emotional heart by staying in love with the world and by knowing that all disappointment and loss will pass.“
–David Z.


Today, September 29, is World Heart Day. Strike up a conversation with your own heart and as you feel comfortable, encourage others to do the same. As part of our own transformations and self-care, we sometimes ask for others to illuminate and enliven our hearts or speak our love language.

What if we could do this for ourselves too, even if just for today… or to start a heart practice, forever?



About

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